LordA... my heartfelt condolences, I know exactly how you feel.......
I lost my Mother in June, and it still hasn't hit me properly yet, ..... its a horrible feeling, strange in many ways, like a dream I suppose..... its kinda hard to explain if you haven't experienced the loss of somebody close I suppose..... dunno, kinda mixed up right now....
............... don't really know what else to say, you wouldn't believe how many sentences I have typed, deleted and re-typed here before submitting to the thread.....
Just let me send my thoughts to you and your family who are going through a tough time right now.